Saturday, August 22, 2009

BIRTH CONTROL...

Someone...I won't say who...saw this picture and checked it off as one more year's worth of birth control. The story goes: This summer I started trying to keep everything ( or get everything) in order. I slowly started to go insane and get really crabby and my house started to slowly become more and more neglected. You see...you have to neglect something when you are given a choice because if you are saying yes to one thing...you are most likely saying no to another thing (thanks to Zach for the wise words and Julie S for reminding me!). I decided to say no to my house and yes to my kids for a bit...

Mind you, please do not think that this is a permanent state of my living room. I have since consolidated the toys, moved things around, stored other things, made Owen take his naps in his room, and been able to clean up a bit and play with my kids without going insane.

I've been asked about my summer quite a bit and I can now answer this way: my summer has been awesome! I did spend a lot of time as property manager, but I also planned lots of trips and playdates with my kids. I cooked good meals and realized how much I like to cook and wish I were better. I realized how much I want a garden next year and how naps are a gift from God. It took more than half of my summer to realize that Owen is happiest when I just get down and PLAY with him. I learned to shoot robots out of the closet, read really long books really fast because Owen can't tell when I am skipping parts (yet!), and how much fun a sprinkler really is. I learned that my TWO kids are great and God gave them just to me. He did not equip me to live anyone else's life and He did not equip anyone else to live my life. Contentment is also a gift from God...Owen has been having a hard time learning that, "I WANT something" is selfish because God has already given us so much. He is learning though. I go back to work on Monday to do some training of 8th grade mentors...then inservice next week...then we start school after labor day...my summer is officially over. Am I sad? I can't be. This is my life. I can't wish it to be any other way. So how was my summer being a stay at home mom? I wasn't a stay at home mom. I am a teacher who gets her summers off. The transition ( and the reality of it) is too much to place expectations that I can be something I am not. I have truly loved being home and have truly grown in my love for my children (whom I will dearly miss when I go back to work). One benefit of being a teacher: I have the hope of another year...HITTING THE REFRESH BUTTON EACH YEAR! What other profession or life situation do you get to do that? :-) And then the built in vacations, off at 3:30 each day, every weekend off, and then summer! Here we go!

2 comments:

South American Sara said...

The kids are getting so big! And they are both so adorable! Thank you for your wise words here. I am lucky to know you. big hugs

MaryM said...

Well Said, my wise young daughter! I continue to follow your footsteps and sit in your shadow. I have always learned so much from YOU!!!